I feel like I'm totally invisible

I'm freaking pathetic.I mean how could I?What was I thinking?What the hell has got into me?I'm so damn pathetic.Whatever happened,let's just keep it to myself.It's just that I..I can't..I don't know what..Urghh!!I can't even spill it out when all I wanted was just to let this hellish thing in my cramped heart out.God.

I've been so[!] miserable lately and somehow I just can't let it out.I have everything I wanna say but I don't have anyone to tell it to.I can't find someone who actually give a damn about it.I'm so invisible right now. I'm right here standing in the middle of the road yet no one sees me.Everyone just walk past by me.What am I?Am I not worth to listen to anymore?

Alright I get it.I'm just freaking pathetic and I'm invisible.Good for me.I'll get a life of my own now.I'll live in my own world [if I can find one].Crap.I'm talking crap again.It's just that I'm..I'm just so ... uhhh... disturbed.This is killing me.People help me get back the real me that I really miss.Only if you still remember the real me and ofcourse,as long as you give a damn about it.I won't die without your support anyway.I can always look up to the ONLY one who never leaves me alone.Dear god,Allah.

Shit.I'm talking shit.I'm acting shit.And I'm feeling like a shit!Urghh!