Am I ready?[with BIG question mark]

Knowing that this blog will never be lost or deleted or torn or whatever,I was thinking,should I write something that I would wish to look back in 10 years time?Do i have something that I want to remember in 10 years time?Hell,ofcourse I do!Ape da.

Anyway,I was in my room when the question hit my head.I was like 'whoah!!what the hell was that?'.I have absolutely no idea what I'm feeling right now.I mean I have a lot to do but I just seems to can't get anything done.I can actually list down things I haven't do yet time is ticking so fast!

1.I still have a lot to buy for my household
2.I haven't discuss with any of my housemates about anything
3.I'm still looking for a few clothes
4.I haven't register online yet for international student and the deadline is getting nearer
5.I haven't finish my driving class
6.I haven't went to my grandparent's place yet
7.I haven't pickup my passport I left with my agent
8.I still need a lot of cooking classes with mom
9.I haven't even start packing my stuff yet
10.I haven't buy any of medical stuff I need like stethoscope,sphygmomanometer,dissection set and my lab coat [anyone know where I can find these things?]

See what I mean?And I'm leaving in 40 days!Honestly,I don't think I'm ready YET.I don't have much time left.I don't know how to be ready for all of this.I mean sure I can buy all those things I need in time.I can still finish my driving class and learn a few more dishes.But how about me?How am I suppose to be ready?What am I suppose to do to be ready?

The thing is,I don't feel anything.Or maybe I do feel something but I just don't know how to put it in words.Nevertheless,I don't know what the hell on earth am I suppose to feel right know.Should I feel nervous?Scared?Or maybe excited?Thrill?I don't know.I don't know this feeling but it bothers me so much.

You might think I'm overreacting.But here's the thing.Try imagining you're leaving the country,leaving all your family and friends behind,to a place you have no idea how's it like there,with your friends you've known only for the past three months,doing something you have no idea wether you can pull it off or not,in 40 days.Then,you have all the right to tell me I'm overreacting.

Anyway,umm I've always wanted to ask this to all my friends;

"how am I suppose to feel when I'm leaving for college?"