apa nie dyda?

THE END.

Is it?Well if it is then it's going pretty fast don't you think?And for some reason it scares me a little knowing that time moves this fast.

Ok.Final is less then a month.I know.It's scary but it's one thing i know i have to face.and i need to work REAL HARD this time.I want to go home.I want to be back with my mom,dad and my brothers.I want to be with my friends.I want to remember the old me for a change.I want to be felt at home.I want to be where I think I belong to.

It's getting lame.Ok.I know.I just need to focused myself.I have a lot to say but none if them actually came out in words..Fine.Let's just leave it there.

RINDU RUMAH DAN ORANG2 DIDALAMNYA LAA OII!URRGGHHH!

screw you dyda!

this is seriously uncool -.- .seriously,SERIOUSLY! i don't like this.not anywhere near the word like.in fact, if i can find word meaner then hate,i'd use it.

can someone,anyone tell me something?am i the kind of person who get pissed of or angry at something easily?because i think i get pissed off quite often this few days.i know my FSH and LH are not quite helping with the mood swings and all but seriously,i was pissed over something so small i couldn't even believe that i can actually get pissed over that thing.

and now.i really hope there wouldn't be any misunderstanding.because i surely have no idea how to explain things and i'm scared things will just get ignored,everyone acts like nothing happen and then there's this awkward thing going on. x suka laa unsolved things!tergantung mcm tu..

ok.it probably wasn't a big thing anyway.so,i think, GET OVER IT DYDA!LIKE YOU DON'T HAVE ANY BETTER THINGS TO DO?SAY,HAVE YOU FORGOTTEN ABOUT YOUR MID SEM EXAM NEXT WEEK??uuurrggh!!screw me!

tdo lagi baik -.-

hahahahahahahahahaha ok seriously,this ain't that funny but I really feel like laughing right now.

Tadi,sangat random.Btol.Macam,apakah..hahahahaha.

Ok.Supposedly ade talk tadi tuk manchester student sem2.I didn't even know there were fliers.Tau by facebook je.Haha.Then supposedly,start at 0730pm tp kol 0800pm baru nk start datang.Terbaik nyer doctors.Ok,so supposedly,I thought the talk was going to be maybe around an hour je.Tapi abang senior tu membebel mak aih..da laa cam sengal2.nasib baik it wasn't a boring one.So,bla bla bla..lapar gler laa.Tak makan pape cause I puasa.Early that day planning nk makan at this new cafe melayu baru bukak kat citu.then,i realized i was out of cash.i mean seriously.i only have 20 geneih and that's it for the whole month.nasib baik tinggal dua arie je lg.

So,i thought i might not want to go to this cafe and just eat a bunch of roti and cereal kat rumah.But ikyn and daiya pujuk2 so macam ok laa.i'll go.

Pastu sampai that cafe,it was ok kot.better then gmn or nusan or rumas.there were even ice blended there!but it was freezing cold so i decided to have hot choc instead.plus the only menu available was nasi ayam.so cam..ok laa.makan je laa.lapar lgpun.who cares.

bla bla bla then things start to get random because seriously,i have never seen orang2 yg bekerja kat cafe tu around mansoura before.i have absolutely no idea dyorg datang dari mana.i mean yelaa..dyorg orang malaysia.tp camne timbul kat mansoura pn xtau.da laa mansoura.

plus,mereka2 yg jumpa kat sana pn random gler.abang senior yg bg speach td pn ade.hahahahahaha see i told you it's nothing funny.i just feel like laughing.

So anyway,classes da start semalam.pbl first case.my group was,..well i duno.i don't have any issue with any of them.it's just seems that the group was rather entah..i can't find the right word laa.So pape laa.hahahahaha [again dida.NOT funny!]So,umm nothing much left to say.Yossshhhh!!for my second sem!

:) [still laughing and had no idea why hahahahahahahahaha]

hmmpphh!

Tiba2 rasa nk blogging. [silent pause]. Ok..Xtau nk tulis ape plak..Hahaha okok.

Lately nie rasa frustrated sangat dgn arab2 sekalian nie.Seriously korang,kalau xle sabar,JGN datang sini.Or kalau nk blaja bersabar,datang laa cini.The place,the people memang kadang2 tu rasa cam nk mencarut sangat2.

Ok.Supposely,arie tu dengar rumors kata da kluar result final.Ofcourse laa nk pegi tgk no matter how excruciating it is knowing your result kn.Then,si hisham keling tu.UGHHH!!Stop saying ''tomorow2.you can come and see the result tomorow'' bole tak??!!Sakit jiwa tau!Berapa lama dyorg nyer tomorow nie?!Org gamaah pn camtu.X systematic langsung.Geram gler.So I went to see the program director laa.She's a doctor.And she told me that the deans had not yet sign the result so it is not really declared or certified so students should not know about it yet.So I asked her laa why are some of my friends had known their result.and she said ''oh.that's because the students had been wondering around in hisham's office so he just went through it''.I was like whaaaattt??? kalau that thing aren't supposed to let out yet,jgn laa bg mana2 students pn tgk NO MATTER WHAT.nie x.bg setengah2.sakit jiwa!I know I could be dead knowing the result but waiting for the result is rather excruciating and a great torture a human worthless human brain like mine can handle.TOLONG laa!!Penat laa otak nie bg tau kt body nie soh sabar.jgn marah.jgn risau.xbaik ckp camtu.jgn mencarut.Hissshhhh!

Da la.Esok kalau g gamaah dy ckp camtu lg.I'll asked them what they did with my parents's 8000USD.I want to see it!

give me fino!

I'm freaking out right now.Seriously.I know what I did wasn't good enough and I'm totally screwed.Spare me.I need some time alone right now.

and

I'm starving.

is it the truth that hurts or the fact that you're not telling it that made things so hard?

I have exactly half an hour and that's it.Lepas nie back to thyroid gland.

Kenapa kn,susah sgt nk ckp kat org ape yg kte x puas hati or pape.I mean I know how it feels like and yes,it sucks.Big time.Tapi knp nk depan org tu pretend like xde pape but blakang dy only God knows ape yg dy cakap.Kalau rasa cam xle nk spill,TLONG jangan cakap blakang ye.It doesn't work that way.Ntah laa.Kadang mcm x bole nk marah.Tapi nk marah.Tp xkn marah.Kadang macam malas nk layan (ayat ikyn).Tp nk layan.Tp in the end,x layan gak.Ok.I sound like arabs. But,whatever.Faham x?!Pape laa.

Ok da.Jgn tambah dosa.Nak exam.Mintak maaf sume org.Pray for me ye.Ok.Back to thyroid glands.Ta~

assalamualaikum~

life can turn you into a bitch sometimes

It really sucks when you were cheated by a bunch of money minded sluts who abandoned you from day one and surprisingly,never stops thinking of millions ways to make your life miserable.Seriously,I feel like flushing them down my toilet.

Huh!

OK.Maybe it wasn't 100% their fault.OK.I was wrong too for not being alert with this kind of thing.Yeah.Blame me for being irresponsible first year student who happens to be thousands miles away from her family for the for the first time in her life and God knows how much she misses home!

Rasa cam nk bitching gler tadi.But thanks to a friends,I felt better.Really grateful someone can actually lend me his ear for a change.He's a good listener.Even over some things he had absolutely no idea what's it about.One thing about him that is so hard for me to get use to is the fact that he reminds me so much of this small warm place thousands miles away called home.Susah btol nk lupa rumah kalau cakap ngn dy n I don't know why!

Da laa.Tired of whining how difficult life is.This is life dida.Things happens.So just shut up and live it to the fullest.And NEVER forget the Dearest One who is always there for you.You are not alone.InsyaAllah..

free time maybe?

Maybe I kinda have good reason to blog tonight.I was stucked in front of kidney for 3 straight hours and I think I ought to have a break.Hihi

I was full and was finding a reason not to go to bed right now actually.Da laa baru makan,pagi2 buta,nk tdo.Mana x gemok.Haishh..

So,things went pretty much normal lately.I don't even know when it's not and when it is.It's pretty much the same.But,yeah.I'm on study leave right now.Till the 28th.So the house is pretty tense.Everyone is busy studying everything kot.Haha.It feels different for me when everyone starts shutting their doors everytime they're studying.It's not that I don't like it or whatever but I just felt like everyone is pretty much too busy that we don't even have time for a...I don't know.'Homey' stuff maybe?Like a small chat after meal like we used to have. Sume org excuse ourselves and get back to study.No time for gossiping or whatever.

Then I thought.OK.Nie baru final first sem.I mean yeah final is definitely a big deal but look at what it had done to us.Serumah pn jarang spend time da.Is this how it will turn out in future?As in we're working and everything?Or will it be alot worse?People said you don't have life when you're doing medic.I was trying and working hard to prove that was wrong.I mean ofcourse,we have lesser free time then everyone has but we still have time.We can still find some time if we want to.There must be a reason why God gives us 24 hours a day right?It must be just enough time for us right?

I really hope my life turns out just fine in the future.I'm always comfortable living in simple life like the one I'm living right now.And I hope I'll be able to make my family well,umm..shall I say 'full of love'?Haha.But seriously,no joke.I want my life to be full of love and happiness.

somebody help me

saya x patut d depan laptop dan blogging.
saya x patut chatting d ym

saya patut study sekarang.
and i'm leaving.
ok i'll stop.

tata